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also, I think it's ok to let some distance take place in relationships when you feel like the two of you are facing challenges on two different world levels. it's not cruel, it doesn't mean you don't love the other person or your shared past means nothing. if you can't connect to them anymore, whether it's temporary or for the rest of your lives, it's ok to pursue other relationships that can help you at the current stage of your life.

I simply can not relate to my friends who're getting married and are in a happy cishet relationship with their family support and lots of money and are looking forward to having kids of their own.
I respect the shared past we had together, and decided to let things fade away because nothing is more cruel than faking love and care for someone.
maybe, one day, they'll understand me and I'll understand them. but that day is not today or the near future.